Vanderhoven and Besty,
You asked about my JW experience. I was raised a JW. Baptized at 16. Began having various doubts at 22 when 1975 came and went. I wrote several letters to the Society questioning some of their unique teachings. I was told to "wait on Jehovah." I then expressed some of my doubts to members of the congregation. I was called before the elders and told to keep all doubts and questions to myself or I might be didfellowshiped for apostasy. I was also told not to spend any more time alone with my then JW girlfriend. They soon discovered I had not been following any of their instructions.
I was promptly disfellowshiped for "conduct unbecoming a Christian," at which time I was told someone gave a small talk about the dangers of people of the opposite sex spending too much time alone. No mention at all was made about my supposed apostasy, leaving most to assume I was being disfellowshiped for sexual immorality, which was not the case. I protested. I told them I wanted them to make it clear to the congregation exactly why I was disfellowshiped and why I was not. They said they owed me no such consideration. Even though they said I could not be reinstated without recanting my stated doubts about the teachings of the FDS. (I have not attended another JW meeting since.)
I soon began to question and doubt God's inspiration of the Bible, and even the existence of God himself. In the late 80's I was gong through a very difficult time in my life. It is said that when you are at the bottom you have to look up. I did. I decided to thoroughly study the Bible with no one's help but God's and then afterwards definitely decide for myself one way or the other if it was inspired by God. I admit I was then hoping to find reasons to believe. But instead, after an almost three year study, I found more reasons than I had ever been aware of before not to believe. In the early summer of 1991, after spending years studying both the scriptures and a whole lot of ancient history, I was ready to toss the whole thing out.
Then something happened that helped me to make perfect sense out of all the things that had just been bothering me most about the Bible. Something that convinced me beyond all doubt that the God of the Bible, and only the God of the Bible, must have created the universe.
This is a very long story. I have been writing a book about it all for several years. A book I hope will someday help bring many to Christ. This has been a tremendous undertaking which has involved much study, not just of the Bible, Bible history and world history, but also of astronomy, archeology, biology, and anthropology. I hope to finish writing my book sometime in the not too distant future. When I do I believe its contents may even help bring some of the atheists here on JWN to Christ.